But first, I do want to say thank you to all my readers, it means so much to me! ^_^
Writing is difficult for me. I have a hard time expressing myself, and I write at a 3rd grade reading level lol. Which is kind of weird because I love reading nice thick books.
I don't know what I'm doing.
I don't have a map of which path to take. I don't even know where I'm supposed to end up. I have always had a hard time listing definite goals and I guess it is all catching up to me now. I carry a constant prayer in my heart that the Universe will give me a hint (or shove) in the right direction. Maybe I'm not patient enough. Maybe I'm not listening hard enough. I don't know what else to try.
I am working on self love because I have not been kind to myself for a long time. And I really want to have an awesome life, full of creativity and love. I want a billion dollars so I can give it all away. Some days I feel like I am SO CLOSE to SOMETHING... but I can't quite figure out what or where.
That's one reason I created this blog. To help me figure myself out, out loud. And hopefully help someone in a similar situation. I have so much energy inside, bottled up, I just don't know how to best direct it. I am so scared to make the wrong choice, I am frozen.
And that's what I have to do, just keep going... just having faith in the Universe and believing in myself that I will make a positive impact.
Please don't misunderstand. I don't mean for this to sound negative... I am actually very happy most of the time. I just get a bit confused... thanks for listening :-)